Written the evening of Tuesday, September 29th, 1998...
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Did you ever have one of those unbelievably lousy days where nothing was going in your favor? That was my day today. We all have them, I know... and while nobody died, I still feel compelled to write how so many small consecutive disasters can add up to an absolutely miserable mood.
To give you an idea of the magnitude of all that went wrong, let's preface this with saying I should be taking better care of myself, and many of these events were indeed brought on by my own actions. Karma at work, I suppose. Let's just hope the punishment for whatever wrong I did has been finished. I woke up late... again, my own fault, because I hit the snooze alarm entirely too often. It's such a stupid thing, but well, I do it every morning. So I ended up running to catch the Metro which zoomed by just as I had lugged my tired butt a mile to the station. So I waited and managed to make it to my first class on time. To my dismay, as I was walking through the door, I saw the professor handing out the exam I swore we were to take on Thursday instead. Not only have I not read the book, but I missed the second week too (from being a bad girl and sleeping in). If I had not had accounting in high school, I would have failed. However, the score I will receive will not be very beautiful. Again, this is something that is entirely my fault. I need to keep a planner again or something. After the exam I tried to go to the lounge and get some munchies to get my sugar level up. That went fine, except I was watching television and of course, that only got me more worked up and upset. I really, really despise the Jenny Jones show. Why? Because every show I've ever happened upon through channel surfing has been about how someone dresses or looks. Everyone ends up getting a makeover in the end and the show goes on. Well, that really bothers me that this is the only content worthy of gracing television. I would have preferred some mundane soap opera that I knew nothing about. Today was no exception. The show dealt with girls who were picked on so much at school they cried themselves to sleep. All because of the way they dressed. The same thing happened to me for a while. It's a miserable experience, and well, it brought back lots of bad memories. Don't ever think it's cool to ridicule someone because they look different or have a funny name. That really pisses me off to this day. People have no idea how much damage that really does to someone. This was also my fault for getting worked up over the show. I should have just put my headphones on or left. Then came calculus... usually the class I dread the most. Actually, I'm doing well in that subject now. However, I got really freaked out over one little thing. I went into this semi-trance. Several minutes disappeared without me knowing about it. I was really gone from the world. This is different from just doodling, and not as severe as blacking out. I just was shocked at how I was elsewhere and time was going by. The professor was looking at me strangely when I rejoined reality. That scared me. After calculus came the joke class of the semester. I trudged over to my introduction to computers class tripping a few times on the way and feeling really lightheaded. Well, we got back our first exam today. Now, I'm no amazing rocket scientist when it comes to computers, but I do know my way around them better than most people. However, my exam score was around 64%. That was just above the class median. The exam was amazingly filled with tons of jargon we had never covered before. The prof spends a full day showing this bunch how to format a freaking floppy and she has the nerve to wonder why so many students failed the first exam. [Insert expletive here.] I'll take responsibility for this to because well, I should have done a bit more reading. I prepared for my slow crawl home having a perfectly unsatisfying scholastic day and began my trek up the huge hill to the Metrolink station in the excessive heat. Then I proceeded to wait. Five more minutes and I'd be on my way home, right? Wrong. The train didn't come in five minutes... more like ten minutes. Then it didn't stop. No, it wasn't express or anything like that. It was supposed to stop. Annoying, so I waited the next 10 to 15 minutes for another to come by. Big surprise was that it didn't stop either. I ended up waiting for half an hour until the ride home began. It is a ten minute ride, by the way. Of course, the little cars were filled with people who also had been waiting. I hate crowded, closed in areas. So then I got to my station and did the mile walk home ensuring myself that the day's troubles were over. Well, I got back here to some icing on the proverbial cake. My apartment had been occupied while I was out. They're removing windows and cleaning them. I knew that they were to be coming soon. In fact, they were supposed to do the windows yesterday. However, they cancelled and the apartment manager told me that she'd call and leave a message for when they'd reschedule. I got no advanced warning. I really hate the fact that someone was in my apartment torturing my poor cat and moving furniture around while I'm not present. I called the manager and she told me what a beautiful cat I had and gave a lame ass excuse as to why she did not notify me. Let's get real here. This woman really dislikes me, I can tell. Well, that was my day. It took me forever to unwind and chill out, but I'm finally getting there. I got to watch a couple season premieres tonight on television and that was a nice change. Oh... and I'm going out in a little while for coffee with a rather nice guy. He held the bowl for me on Saturday at the party. I still cannot fathom how anyone would watch me do the whole projectile vomit thing and still want to see me again. So maybe the day isn't so bad anymore. The rough spots are over. There's a silver lining on that giant, murky cloud waiting for opportunity to snatch it away. Things are looking up for the time being. |
Can the weatherman of my little world promise me some sunshine for just a little while?